Cherry, your hugs are much appreciated. Nursing a horrid ear, nose and throat infection for the past week and not feeling up to much.
Went to violence counselling last week and kid's counsellor called me this week to update me on kid's progress. Kid was making great progress by telling the C about the AO that triggered the D. In the last visit, however, she refused to talk about it any more as she didn't want to remind mummy about the sad incident. I have always listened to her and encouraged her not to feel ashamed of what happened. I wonder if the xh's family is giving her some other messages.
During the last visit, kid shared with me the play she wrote, 'Cinderella: the unwanted daughter'. I couldn't hear much past the title of her play asy heart was breaking into pieces and I was doing my damnest not to break into tears.
The C told me that kid felt unwanted by her father and that she knows that mummy loves her. Kid also feels responsible for me. I have always tried to appear upbeat in front of kid but I guess the spew from my mother and the ex got to us. I must be stronger and cut off all these unpleasant interactions. I will not interact with xh or mother if they cannot behave in a decent way. And vice versa.
Latest heartwrenching incident. There is a bald patch on kid's head. I have never seen it until kid brought it to my attention yesterday. It was a largish patch behind her ears but thank goodness it was covered by hair. Hair was starting to grow but I will have to monitor it.
Where did that come from? I have been helping kid wash her hair and haven't noticed it. Was it the result of the lice preparations that we used about 2 to 3 months ago? But I had never noticed any bald patch then.
Could she have pulled out or shaved her own hair? But she couldn't have done it at home without me noticing.
Add to all these new troubles is the fact that her sessions with the Violence counsellor is ending and the C is switching jobs. Kid will be devastated and I am at a loss as to where to look for an affordable and competent C for kids. As these are court-mandated sessions, they have been free.
Kid is now my utmost priority. I guess I am a close second, if not a tie.
Breathe in, breathe out. I can do this.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
