I think I left out, and I can't edit, we may be attending a mutual event this summer. I realize, even though those who know me, I would go into this event, hold my head up high, have a great time, but seeing them together with no answers, even bad ones, would cause me much pain. It's the truth. (and this event may be the one we met at). So, I need to do what I can to be cool with me, him and her. I hate having ill feelings towards people. I want to have compassionate feelings.
