Now or .....?

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OK, so the anniversary came and went. We actually had dinner all together when she came to pick up the kids. No mention of the day at all until loading the kids up in the truck.

She was already in and i leaned to her from the back where i was saying goodbyes to the kids and said "happy anniversary" I wasnt really sure if there was a response as it was noisy and i was getting out.

Had the kids over the weekend and we got a few small things for W for mothers day. the kids had me take them to the store to buy food so they could cook brunch for her. They were going to tell her when she called to say good night, but..she didnt call.

So mothers day morning i sent her a text to let her know. She said ok, i tried calling last night but it went straight to voicemail. who knows.

Anyway she came over kids helped me cook and we went to the monster truck show. Good time. We headed back to leave and it was still before dinner so i figured we would just be heading separate ways after, W stated she was hungry and wanted to eat. So we all went and ate together.

Bit of a mind racing episode happened and dont really know what to think of it, but W was texting and D7 leaned over to snoop and said who is "stephan" W quickly moved the phone and said Stephanie. D7 quickly responded she didnt see any "y" or I". I am not aware of any stephanie and pretty sure w was texting someone name a guy named stephen.

I dont know anyone or what capacity it would be but she hid it and made up a name so of course that didnt feel good.

So i have spun about this the past few days.

Another few things going on is the house she is renting, the owners want to sell it. So now she is dealing with that.

So i posted in another thread about how i feel she is willing to do things with me and the kids when it is her time but when it is mine and she is free she doesnt want any part or is too busy.

I dont like this. I am needing to flat out ask her if i am imagining things between us or not. I am battling with asking her out for a real date this weekend and then have a R talk.

I honestly dont want to feel like I am anymore. I need to know answers.

I am willing to listen to anyones opinions here. fire away