Mother's day was interesting. I had her over at my place where the kids were for a short time. She tried texting OP, I told her she could leave if she wanted to talk to him. She stopped. Had a decent time. She loved the card the kids and I made for her, and the trays I made out of her mom's rose petals that our son tore up. Had a brief tense discussion that involved OP, but I killed it quick with "how about we don't ever mention him again in my home." At the end of it, I told her family day wasn't going to be a thing, because I am exploring being myself without her, and that things like family day don't fit in with that. Otherwise, was nice and relaxing.
Divorce proceeding was today. Went smooth. After having been mostly dark except on mother's day, I actually flipped things and was very flirty with her. She rubbed my back on the way out, and then at the car, she came in to hug me. I put her arms under mine, and she got in close and said I love you, I paused, and said I love you, too. When we pulled apart, I kissed her on the cheek by her mouth, and she said I love you again. Then I walked away, asked her if my moustache was too bushy, and she said no.
So, divorce will probably be final in 3 weeks when a judge signs it, but she's starting to ebb back towards being free and fun with me.
In the meantime, I'm having a good time GAL'ing. Working out, playing on the beach, sometimes out for a drink with some friends or family. Still not easy all the time... but it's getting easier. Been on a couple dates now. Not really ready for it, but thought I'd give it a try just to see how it feels. It feels deceitful, but these aren't ending in sex. They're just having fun. It doesn't need to get that personal.
