WAW moved out, spewing anger, trying to detach

[OFP]

I've been reading through all your threads... Lots to read, lots of venting/journaling has happened for you.

We have had communication issues over the years that I believe have left many unresolved issues that have finally piled up.

Same here...

Initially she would tell me she wanted to work things out, but just needed space.

Yep!

I love my W and I know that I have created a list 20 miles ling with all of the things that I have done wrong in our marriage...

And at the end of the day, knowing all that solves what?.... I went through the same thing, "self-toture"!!

(her) mood swings have started suddenly since about 2 or 3 weeks after the BD

My W's started a week before

Basically she has not really showed emotions of any type over the years except for when they are extreme

I hear you here too!

My daughter mentioned that she has never seen her mother cry.

Apparently my daughter has seen her cry, it was me that never saw it.

knowing of the many challenges that my D5 will go through just feels like an ongoing sucker punch over and over

I'm sorry to hear, I know exactly what you are talking about... every time I see my kids I feel this same way.

My D17 is smart and behaving much more like the responsible adult in the relationship with her mom. Weird huh?

Got you beat there, S11 is acting more like an adult than my W!

I believe in marriage, but I need to escape the "crazy" now.

Yep, exactly the reason I filed. She thought she was going to file an OFP against me, but was surprised when I filed for D???

I saw tears from my WAW for the first time in many many years. I am not sure how I feel about that, but it was refreshing to see a little chink in the angry monster that has been here the past 2 months

Yep, saw my W in tears during mediation, first time in many years!

It almost appears to have been a living hell for both of us......and I refuse to let that be my memory, because I would not want to fight for my family and MR if that was the truth

Same struggle here... as you've likely seen in my thread.

I start to think that this is how it has always been living with her. I start to think I can't wait for her to leave and have some peace

Sad that these thoughts come up? But maybe is the correct path to realize things for how they really were?

The anxiety waves continue to keep crashing over me

Believe me, I know this feeling all too well. If you find a solution, please share!

...she is her own circus, and her own monkeys.

That's awesome!