Hi LiM, Bluwave and everybody who has been helpful and posting ideas regarding my situation. After much thought, a long talk with my DB Coach last Friday and meeting with my IC, I decided the best course between absolute darkness and just saying 'sure, come on back to our property' was to invite him over to discuss the idea. I sent an email on Sunday, brief and upbeat and friendly. Asked if he'd like to come over and discuss what he has in mind and how it would work. I have not seen him or spoken to him since April 6. I feel this will be a way to test the waters of how I feel around him, and to validate his feelings etc. I have not heard back from him yet. Meanwhile - in answer to your questions about what am I doing to GAL and deal with codependency issues? I am spending at least an hour a day working on A Course in Miracles lectures and getting my head/thinking straight about where my real power source lies. Actually went for the entire weekend working on projects I've wanted to do here, and NOT crying! Yesterday was not so good...didn't sleep enough and felt like a raging angry child. Got over it. Today back on track. Starting to look for a better job. Speaking to friends I've not seen in a long time. I am starting to feel I've turned a corner from the clinging mindset of wanting to change to 'get him back' vs. how I want my life to be, how I want to BE, regardless of what happens with my husband. I miss him terribly, yes, but am starting to feel stronger inside myself. I have made amazing things happen in my life before without being in a R and I know I can do it again. I want to thank all of you for your kind tough love. Will get caught up on your posts today. THANK YOU!!!!
