I can't do this. I want to give up. I'm so tired of crying, so tired of wondering where he is, who he's with...

I'm tired of feeling like a second choice. I want to file for divorce just to end all of this waiting

Me: 37
Husband: 35
Married 5 years, together 13
Daughter - 1
Bomb dropped - 12/28/2015
He's moving out (officially) - 4/15/2016
EA confirmed 6/1/16
PA confirmed 8/1/16