OFP, these cycles will come and go. really try for your own health to get out of your groove.
have you tried and meditation... it is pretty awesome stuff and a way to help release building anxiety.
there is also grounding exercises you can do to help when you are getting to the verge of being overwhelmed.
I get where you are coming from...acceptance is not something rhat our minds can just DO. but it is something that you must eventually come to.
how are you doing with exercise?
socializing?
treating yourself well?
I know you are looking forward to getting back into your house, but allow me for one second, to be a contrarian...is that going to help you move forward or is it going to help keep you stagnant and in the past. don't just wait...start moving your feet today.
you have a chance to make some ground up MOVING FORWARD in your life...growing some roots in some new soil.
