Ok. So this morning I wake up and I'm have those negative thoughts again. The thoughts of do I really want to be married to W. I wonder am I just afraid to be alone and to pull the trigger on divorce myself. I begin to have all these thoughts that what she said is right. That she cant make me happy the way I want. She is right. I do want more children. She doesn't. I do want someone who enjoys physical touch and will hug me and kiss me when they see me. Someone to cuddle with. Someone who wants me in bed. I think to myself. I'm a good looking gut, with a great career and I'm a great father. I can do better. So why am I staying around? I don't think I should stay in my marriage because of my son, but I do feel like I owe him the effort and to give it a go. I just get confused at times as to wondering if I really want this
M 37 W 30 S 7 Together 10 years Married 9 years BD: 12/12/12(W filed same day) I moved to apartment 1/11/13 W and S moved to MIL 1/11/13 Peicing: 6/3/13 Reconciled: 7/2013 BD2: 4/20/16 still working on it
