14 days of sheer hell - part 4

[DDJ]

i'm trying both avenues roist; yesterday I said "i'll join you for your bday" and she says "that she does not want me with". I told her this morning, "do you think that you going out on your bday without me is trying to make the M work" to which she could only answer "no". Then i get the unsolicited email that she wants to make the M work.

She's been confused from day 1, one foot out and one foot in. I have no doubt that I would not have been here if it was not for me DBing, I know that I need to keep on doing it - but how do i continue if she perceives it as me doing the same old thing and being distant and putting her second.

I know that for this to work, I need to put her first, be the knight in shining armour right now. That goes against DBing - i'm just as confused!