Have been under the weather these few days, haven't really been catching up on the board. Your comments have given me food for thought.
I always thought that he sounded like he regretted the decision to D and that a big part of his decision was to inflict as much pain as he thought I had inflicted on him. But he swings so often and so much that I get whiplashed.
I really have to admit that I haven't been the best wife in the R and that I suck at dbing. I guess I have to put away the niggling suspicion that if I had found this site earlier and learnt to stfu better, things would have ended differently.
When I remember the hurtful things he had done to me and kid, I wonder how it is that I have held on for so long. And how I can still have feelings for someone as callous as him.
And then I remember that he wasn't always so bad. And perhaps he had tried his best. Maybe we really weren't meant to be together. My moods and sentiments changes so frequently and abruptly that I am giving myself whiplash.
I must learn to acknowledge the good and the bad and accept them for what they are. I must make use of the time to work on myself.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
