I know that you are correct. I have not detached. I am calm and feeling better when not in her presence and when I don't have to think about interacting with her. I am conflicted in my mind and heart as part of me wants the D to hurry up and get done so that there is no more discussions and debates over things with her, and then the other part feels sorrow and failure for the loss of my W and family unit.
This has all happened in such a short time my mind is in a battle with trying to comprehend it all versus just accepting it and moving forward.
Yesterday feeling anger was not what I wanted, and you are very right that I am still on her roller coaster and need to get off. I look back and see several triggers that took place after the conversation with D17. I need to be more aware because they were triggers that made me miss the past happiness, comfort, and sadness. This put me in a mood that I must keep in check.
I am reviewing information about detachment and validation. These are 2 key things for me as instinct and bad habit keep catching me off guard.
Thank you DDJ for the candid feedback as I know it to be correct. I must separate my challenges with WAW and my children. They are the focus because I love them and they need a strong father.
Thank you DDJ for the candid feedback as I know it to be correct.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
