Thank you. I appreciate that. Things are fine in general and I am just accepting that even tho we passed the one year mark, there is still much work to be done. It really is a long and slow process to corrode a marriage, but maybe even longer to mend it. Like my H says, we have been working on what happened while we were separated, but there is still this big pile that lead to it falling apart initially. Sometimes it's hard to see where you messed up when the other person was so clearly in the wrong. Oh I can point my finger all day long!
I also realize that we can't just talk about the problems and what needs to change. We have to put that aside at times and enjoy life. Just laugh. It can be so easy to forget that. We need to build something new here but I am not always sure how to do that. Habits and patterns like to stick and we are just so busy with work, kids, and their activities.
The good news is that the triggers are starting to fade. They are still there, but they don't get me in the gut like they used to. That is huge for me.
-Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
