This is hard stuff, Rose. Try and remember that even tho H has made his "decision," he is still struggling with his feelings and some confusion. It is a long process to work through all this. I would say, keep focusing on you and your happiness as much as you can. Have patience with yourself and him. You don't need to change for him.

-Blu

“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela