Focus on me and my boys

[J5K]

Rose, CWOL,

I agree her behavior is despicable and yes I am fed up with the entitlement also.

Why is it that after 6 months of going through this I still have feelings for her and want this to work out.

Not that I want it to go back to the same routine. I just wanted her to appreciate how hard I worked in order to provide for the family, instead she blasts me for not being present and says she cannot forgive me for calling her a few choice names which I totally regret ever saying. Not making excuses but we were both under pressure.

I guess I will never understand her. Maybe I will when she ends up with someone else and is wearing a huge diamond ring in her next M and is driving a fancy car and wearing expensive clothes and is taken to nice shows and fancy dinners without having to lift a finger at home. I truly hope she finds that guy that will make her happy.

She met a white collar worker in a blue collar state. Guess she needed a white collar guy that works in a high rise building to make her happy because that is the type of person she is with now.

I have scheduled an IC session later this week to start working on myself again to get over this whole scenario.

I feel like whoever gets custody of the boys my reaction will be the same to this whole situation. Sadness for them that their parents will not be together. The pain that I feel today is less about me and more about the loss the boys will have.