Why is Raven black?

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I'm trying, Esame. I used to surf (I grew up a SoCal beach bum)and I've gotten into the mindset of just rolling with whatever movement bumps my board. Keeping my knees bent and my body loose.

I really never do know what I'm going to get from my MLCer. Thursday he was talkative and friendly H when the guy came to get the tractor.
Saturday he was stressed and angry H with a narrow, negative outlook on everything that couldn't be swayed (but still able to vent to me).
Sunday I had to call because the lawnmower (once again) could not be started. I was greeted with a very happy "Happy Mother's Day!" . We then had a great talk about family and people we knew and "stuff". Of course, H was up at the vacation home and it was sunny, so why wouldn't he be happy? Then again, he was there the night before when he was super negative.

See? You just have to stay loose and deal with the rise, the fall, the random angled bumps...

He couldn't stop by but assured me he would come over today and it would start. He would mow and he even would help me with a house project I had been mentioning needing his help with. I acted like that was all fine...but here's the funny part. Old H was a weather nerd. Constantly looking at radar and weather info every day, all day. I knew we were supposed to have thunderstorms and rain today. So, was he oblivious? Or just saying he'd do it because he was feeling pressured and then going to blow it off last minute today?

Funny thing, though. It doesn't matter. My agent called to tell me she's going to present an offer on our house tonight. I texted H after she called and told him this and told him since he would be at the house anyway, she would do it then. He just texted back, "ok". Blowing it off is no longer an option. And since he is going to visit family over the weekend, if the lawnmower won't start, I'm going to hire someone to mow and then present the bill when he comes back...or at mediation since he is on record as saying he would help with maintenance and pay for repairs.

I feel mean doing that. But I get tired of this behavior, too. It is one thing to understand and not be angered all of the time by it. Its another to just put up with it. He tells me he goes to the vacation home and doesn't sit down...constantly working. There's really not a lot to do, maintenance-wise. He promised to help here. He hasn't really done ANYTHING since we listed the house. Promises to help and then doesn't. Unless I ask specifically (like make the mower work). He did apologize for everything we own having a "trick" to it to make it work.

Sigh. Who knows what goes on in his head.