14 days of sheer hell - part 4

[DDJ]

so done blogging, back to my WW... here's her emails and my replies:

You want us to work and I can see you very emotional about it but once again your stubbornness is getting in the way, pushing me away is not gonne bring me closer to you.
I love you so very much, its time to let go of your fears of getting hurt and time to let go of us.
You decide.

I'm not sure what you mean by the last sentence... When you say let go of us, are you still talking about divorce or the past?

I don’t want divorce, and I am talking about you!!!!!!!
You need to decide what you want, pushing me away last nite than you cant sleep, I am a young female and I need intimacy that I want from my husband but my husband is pushing me away once again, what am I supposed to do with that??use my pink buddy? That you get upset about?? I can only tell you what I think but I cant read your mind.

I'm def not going to respond anytime soon. Its 9am now and will probably do so at round 3pm. Give her something to think about for the day.

I think my ideal response would consist of me saying, as i did yesterday, "that my heart is still broken and I cannot let you in yet." As for her sexual drive, yes that s at its peak now but i fought her off very quickly yesterday, she turned her back and went straight to sleep. I think I should tell her to just keep her pants on for as long as she can. Is that not her showing commitment, or am i really just controlling her - or is it a boundary that I cannot be with someone (yet) that was having an affair?

I'm not sure what to do. But for now i'm doing nothing.