New here need support

[poschan]

Getting out last night was good... hard seeing all the couples together having fun though. W never asked a thing. Went to church and bought her some flowers today for D7 afterwards. D7 said they were perfect. W and D7 went to lunch with W's folks something I usually attend but wasn't invited. It was fine I kept busy and spent the rest of day with D7 when they got home.
While I was fixing D dinner W asked if I still want to do irreconcilable differences. I told her this is not my D and it was her choice. Told her that I would rather not get Ls involved and she nodded. She also asked if I had figured out if I was going to buy her out re the house and I told her that I was waiting to hear back from accountant this week. I get the worst stomach churning every time she wants to discuss D. I know its because this isn't what I want but need to accept what is for my own mental health. It helps to know that I deserve to be treated better, but still hurt for D7. Regarding telling D7 I told W that she would need to tell D7 re her choice I would be present but quiet. She said that was unfair and I said I wouldn't lie to her since this is W's path not mine. Not sure how to tell D7, any advice would be appreciated.