Ciluzen it sounds like you are in such a good place with your self improvement journey at the moment! Your mentality is so positive and balanced, you are truly an inspiration. I just wanted to say that I think you could not have dealt with things any better than you already are, and that you should be proud of yourself!
"There's nothing sadder than a conman conning himself"
“There is freedom waiting for you, On the breezes of the sky, And you ask "What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, What if you fly?”