14 days of sheer hell - part 4

[DDJ]

Yep, not lowering my walls, she was asking to spend time together, perhaps cake eating, who knows, too late now...

This is most likely going to end in D, as I can see that any "transgression" on my part will definitely see her fleeing and rebelling. My mothers day lunch has run over. Was supposed to be home by 2pm, and got here at 3-15. Kept her updated on timelines throughout and she and my S are not here. She's also not answering her phone or acknowledged any of my TMs. She clearly made plans at about 1:30 to be gone. Only getting second car tomorrow so dont know where she is or who she with since she not with her sis. It definitely does not matter.

This is my life now and I need to deal. I don't feel like i'm in limbo though, because I am not on her roller-coaster anymore. It would be asking too much for some consideration, I guess.

So when she does return, I need to focus on 180 and validation. Going to relax and watch some footy. Been out for 3 days straight so not going to do anything besides being in the moment.

Happy Mothers Day to all out there that deserve it.