Life's a Dance-One Step Forward and Two Steps Back

[melweb]

Thanks for the support kml and 123Gwen. I need all that I can get at the moment!!

Ok so I told the boys. Man that was hard!! I cried. I told them that "dad has decided to leave and live in a hotel until..I don't know when. I do not know what is future plans are." S15 says "Maybe he will change his mind like he did before." I just said "maybe, he's actually changed his mind 7 times." I told them the usual... its not their fault, he still loves them and he will always be their dad. Neither had questions or concerns or comments. I left it that. Later I asked S15 if he had heard from dad and he said yes, and he read me the text: "I am living in a hotel while mom and I work this out. I am not far so I can come have dinner with you. Don't worry, everything is going to be fine." I said ok--just wondering if you had heard from him.

H texted me 30 times yesterday!! Yes, THIRTY!! First about the dinners, the laundry, the food. I reminded him that he fired me. He asked a couple of questions. I replied with a one word answer. Later told me to go out with boys for Mothers Day, asked what I told them and then asked Hows things? When he finally realized I was not answering him he said if I want to cease communication then to just tell him. 1/2 hour later I replied that I was shutting my phone off and I would talk to him Monday.

He sent me a text this morning saying "Happy Mothers Day. You are a wonderful mother and our boys are lucky to have you as they grew up caring for them." I will not respond to that today.

So here's a million dollar question: How do I balance a "DB/marriage saving/hope for reconciliation" stance with an "I will not enable your affair/let you cake eat and think everything is okey dokey" stance"? I feel like I am walking tight rope over the Grand Canyon.

You know guys--now that he out of the house, my nerves are less edgy, actually had an appetite last night and looking forward to today with my boys. Steak and cheesecake...yahh!!!

Hope everyone has a wonderful Mothers Day!!