What should I be doing? (2)

[Coconut]

Thx CBT, I'm trying to breath and take a minute. I have been the best with my GAL activities, I've done more stuff in the last 4 weeks than I did in the previous 2 years.. Im gonna find a meditation class to go to this week, and I just started reading the thought stop chapter in DR, hopefully I can find something that helps my control my thoughts and emotions. I've been dressing better, keeping the MB neat and tidy, always wearing cologne and she has been noticing.

Physically I'm feeling good and my son loves all the extra attention from me, especially since W is hardly ever with him du to academy. Does the fact that her feelings for him and how she treats him hasn't changed mean anything? I wonder if she realizes the impression she will put on him if he ever finds out, it really hurts to think I could lose the opportunity to live with him from all of this.

How do you guys deal with not involving family members? While out today with family, I fielded questions left and right about W, such as how's she doing in academy? There where lots of answers I wanted to give, but I just said she's doing well on all the tests..

I'm really impressed with the strength some of the LBSs on this board have, my sitch isn't nearly as tough as some other stories I've read, and the strength you all have to keep fighting astonishes me.