I don't think I would be able to get through this without my kids. They are my world, and I am strong for them. I am also building a world of my own. A world of "selfish" happiness. Happiness that is mine and mine alone. It sounds like your D is amazing, too. I have been praying for restoration of my family, and for this M to work. I also have prayed for a while that if a few specific things were true that they would be revealed to me, and to give me the strength to handle it. Well, less than 24 hours apart they were revealed to me as true. Don't ask for something if your not ready to know the answer, but I told God that this was to much of a burden for me to carry. There should be no secrets in prayer.
I will still continue to DB it terms of how I interact with W, and how I move forward in my life. Just because you give forgiveness doesn't mean it requires reconciliation. Forgiveness is for yourself not the offender.
I now see that a PA was a deal breaker for me, but before I knew of the PA, I wasn't really sure. How could anyone be before experiencing that, right? I love this forum and everyone on it. This has been such an amazing place to get advice, vent, whine, whatever. We all feel the same pain, but are in different stages of the process. We don't always get the same results but we all start at the same point, BD.
