What should I be doing? (2)

[Coconut]

Ok, so i haven't reached out to wife since yesterday afternoon, except to shortly reply to text from her, this morning she text me good morning and I replied GM, then later she text a picture of her and BFF at beach and I replied looks like y'all having fun, then a little later she asked what me and son doing and I replied I'm out, S at home... No further contact.

Wonka says don't talk to her for a week, if that means not at all I can do that, but she keeps talking to me and not sure if I should not reply by txt or in person at all or just give really short generic response. If she says she wants to talk I'll tell her nows not a good time, we can talk later. I'm thinking she may ask me if I want to look at her phone, I'll guess I'll respond the same...

I have a real problem not tearing up when I talk to her, I think it's partly because of no sleep in days, so gonna try again tonight. I seriously need to get my manhood back, I just keep thinking about the wife I married and losing my step-son over this and it tear... I'm gonna make appt with doctor to see about depression medication sense I believe that also has a lot to do with the crying.

I also gotta stop checking phone records, because when I see OM number I lose it. I know it's not her right now, but the disrespect is real.

I've been out all day, a few times the sitch popped in my head and I had to hold back tears, but for the most part it was a good day.