Phoebe, your h sounds like my xh. Xh could never stay in the house. He had to be out and about. It's as if there's so much going on inside of him that he's trying to escape that he has to keep distracting himself.
I think your H can't stand being in the country for the same reason. There's little to distract him from the turmoil or emptiness that he feels inside.
I like what you said in bluwave's thread about how the WWS project onto us their weaknesses and insecurities. Xh said that I made him feel inferior, when I tried my darnest to always include him in decision-making. The irony is that he hated decision-making.
And it's really true that the AP only mirrors back when they think our (x)S want to see and hear. These AP can really be master manipulators.
I think it's lovely to be able to work with nature and animals the way you do. And I like that you are aware of the need to reach out to people.
The sleep issue is icky. But there came a point when you will be so worn out once the adrenaline wears out that you will finally be able to sleep.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
