Life's a Dance-One Step Forward and Two Steps Back

[melweb]

Thank you so so much Sotto, job, 2T and HW. I love and appreciate the support and words of advice that I continually get from you guys. Feeling the love for sure!

H was gone when I got home from grocery shopping.Not sure to where but not my monkey, not my circus. Boys are still asleep. I am surprisingly ok!! I bought myself some flowers, some steaks and a cheesecake at the grocery store. I want to stay home and make dinner with the boys and enjoy NOT being on the roller coaster for the time being. H is not invited-- I am not his mommy after all. H can spend the day alone as I am sure OW will not be available for a tryst tomorrow. But then again, maybe she will--what do I know?!

I am going to tell the kids that he decided to leave, but will leave the affair out (for now) unless they ask. I will not lie for him.

Deep down I know this is what is best for him to get his head on straight, but I honestly didn't think he could/would do it. My heart is telling me its only temporary and surely he will see what he is missing, that OW will never leave her H and he will come running back ready to make amends. But my head is telling me ---"YO stupid. Get real!!" I wish they both would STFU!!

This weekend is about me, and I am going to make it that way!! I am going to the gym and get a tan later. Maybe hit the bookstore. I also bought some yummy looking alcoholic beverages that are just calling my name (Hey--at least something is!!)

Again--I love you guys for all the support. Happy Mothers Day to you all. <3