cbt, believe it or not, you have been given a gift to be catching things right now. you have a great chance to fix things where they are. i on the other hand ignored things at the point you were at and hoped that it was a phase. now the wound has festerd horribly and the waters are very muddy.
educate yourself, and do what you have to do. its not going to be easy. but trust, me, you dont want to be where im at. and mine could have been prevented, if i would have started eariler.