I would have classified as fear, but struggle is probably right
my struggle is no secret here. I struggle whethere it is time to be done. I struggle withat how I can leave this unhealthy marriage and how I would be abandoning my children. I struggle with the gap between my wife's behaviors and a truly loving and vested partner. I struggle with seeing virtually every single marriage fail with as survivor if CSA and why I see this as somehow different. I struggle with how I can see my wife as different than all the rest.
I try to keep all of these things from my mind, accept that they are all possible and just live, you know I've been trying to really live...but then every once in a while this $hit cycles back and hits me in the gut, so to speak.
