The dream was just a dream, but it hurt as much as if it was real. I have had dreams before that tapped into other people's feelings and experiences (very specific ones!), so that made me wonder if it was more than just my own brain at work. I told H about it and he looked sad and said he was sorry I went through that.

It sounds like your H was either completely torn or leading you on to stall for time - either way, it was incredibly selfish of him. People who cheat, doesn't seem to care that they are playing with an unfair advantage - they know everything that's going on but keep it hidden.

I don't actually think H looks at my FB feed - he hasn't used it in years. But if he does, he'll see only posts about how active I am and how much I love this place.

M 16 yrs, WH62, P54
3 adult blended kids
EA 11/13, BD1 6/14
PA fall 14, BD2 2/15
Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15
Separated 4/16
WH moved OW in 5/16
Divorced 6/15/17