OFP

[1gr8dad]

OFP, I think you and I are at the same stages in all of this. Your last post was almost if I'd written it, except I wouldn't have written it as well.

Here's my observations and input FWIW.

You were doing well until you saw her in person. I know what this does to me each week when I drop D3 off to WW. It kills and re-opens the wound. This must have been your first time seeing her in a while so it must have been incredibly difficult. (for both of you likely).

It's clear that after seeing her you are torturing yourself with the analysis. Time to re-DETACH for your own good. Remember detachment means being ok regardless of the 6 scenarios above, with or without WW.

In your sitch I know how hard it it because of the finality of the OFP and the utter lack of control that you are placed in.

But control what you can now - YOU - and your mental health. Keep being the best dad. Keep up the GAL even if you don't have your stuff yet. Call you friends and family - one each night.

Focus your pain and suffering into motivation to make yourself even better than you were before. That's the best gift you can give yourself and the person you end up with.

I feel that once you are though this pain you will realize the OFP was a blessing in disguise for 2 reasons from my viewpoint:

1) You've been presented the challenge in life to live with something you cannot control. If you make it though this you can make it though the many other challenges in life ahead.

2) Honestly, from what I hear about WW, it's clear it was a bad choice from day 1. You can do so much better. You know have an opportunity to find someone you will be much more compatible with and someone without a history of mental health who will be able to make you happy.

Based on what I've read, truly, I don't think you will have a problem engaging the women of your dreams once you are ready.

For now, focus on one day at a time. Baby-steps in the right direction for yourself. You can do it!