Life's a Dance-One Step Forward and Two Steps Back

[melweb]

Well folks. Maybe I blew it!! H is leaving tomorrow for a hotel, Until he is in financial shape to get an apartment--He thinks one month after we pay off all credit cards next week. He wants to tell the kids we are just "taking a break.", then still go out for dinner on Mothers Day. " for the sake of the boys." am not crazy about either of those ideas!!

I told him I would think about Mothers Day dinner. Mind you, this will be one day after we tell them we are "taking a break." Any thoughts on this?? I told him I would think about it.


It sure doesn't feel like he is on the fence any longer, job. This feels like a definite, made up his mind kind of thing. And I most definitely feel like I am not handling this sitch very well. Clearly, as he is bent on leaving!! My head is telling me it is the right thing for him/us, but my heart is crushed, thinking there us no way I can salvage what is left of this marriage. I thought I was doing everything possible not to help him out the door-- that was my intention!! HE would have to make the decision to pack his bags and walk away from his kids. That day has come-- tomorrow. He truly believes he loves this woman and is willing to nuclear bomb a 21 yr marriage for a woman he has known 6 months. And is married, with 3 kids, and lives 3 hours away!! Wtf!!??

Sorry-- I did not come here to vent. But thanks for letting me.