Cali, You are exactly where you need to be at this time. No one could tell you that you were trying to open the wrong door, you had to figure that one out for yourself...but you did and you now hold the key to your future and in time, that key will unlock a lot of new and exciting things and meet some new people along the way. Don't second guess yourself...okay?
You have an exciting trip coming up...China! Go and have some fun while you are there and not just sticking w/a work routine. There is so much to see and do and I hope you will carve out a bit of "me" time on this trip.
I'm glad your son is doing well. He will always be excited to hang out w/you...it's the male bonding. His mother has a lot of damage to repair and it sounds like she may be on the right path to do so, but it will take a lot of time and patience for them to mend the fence.
Your GAL activities are keeping you fairly busy and I'm glad you have met someone and you are taking things slowly. I'm glad to see that you are stepping outside your comfort zone and enjoying these new things and you will discover that Cali really does like doing new and exciting things outside his comfort zone. There is a whole wide world out there waiting for you...embrace the new you and go for it!
Cali, please don't second guess one thing that you've done. Each and every step you took had to be taken in order for you to grow and become wiser on your life's path. You are a far better man today for experiencing the things you did and you will be able to share your wisdom w/others who happen to cross your path.
Enjoy your trip to China! Travel safely!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
