Need some help from the DB community! Crunch Time!

[LiM]

Didn't you JUST post that you need to quit those R talks?

Yeah. Do it. Cut them out.

Start over.

Step 1: get back to a beginners mind.

Yep, time to start over from scratch. Go back to the beginning. Read the book again.
Detach, 180 and GAL.
My guess would be that this is your last chance so its time to get serious about this.
What are the issues in your M? What are your issues? What are hers?
You fell in love for a reason. Where did that guy go? How do you get him back?