14 days of sheer hell, now 5 weeks are over

[DDJ]

So, WW came in at 1-45. Still have no choice to trust that she's not cheated, she is on her menzies and her demeanor has not changed. But what does it matter anyhows.

I realised that I could not sleep because I was hungry, the longer i stay awake, the hungrier i get. So by 12:30 I ate quite a bit, and was asleep by 1am, only to be awoken by her. I made a decision that this is not the life i want to lead, even if she's just hanging out. All that i'm doing is giving her rope to hang me with. I refuse to exist like this.

Anyhows, she comes in, says that she's going to sign for the car today, because when i went to fetch our S at creche, she was crying and realised that she only had me in her life, no-one else. She's decided that she's not going to lose me and we're going to stay married FOREVER (i cringed). She said that if we can keep on going out by ourselves with our own friends then she will be happy. As long as we tell each other where we're going and who we're going with.

SHE BAT CRAZY. I think that by the end of this, i'm going to be a WAS, i really think that that's where i'm headed. She is killing all attraction that I had for her.

And i need to add one more thing to my daily goals, REMAIN MYSTERIOUS. My mother always says that the one hand must not know what the other is doing. Why are our mothers so wise!