Life's a Dance-One Step Forward and Two Steps Back

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2T-- That totally makes sense. And I believe that is why he has come back "in" the last 2 times. (I counted today; he has been "in/out" 7 times since the begiining of March) I have told him that I think leaving is for the best, and if its OW he wants then he should go-- twice. I'd love to read that article!!

Ok so when H got home from work, I am dim; he asks about my day, I ask about his and walk away.

He sends me a text that he thinks he should leave. I go downstairs and ask him "why?" H: I am in love with someone else. Me: I guess thats a good reason. Honestly cannot even remember what else was said. The gist tho that he is sick of pretending, of living an unhappy life. He has weighed all the risks. Said he is feeling a lot of pain. Blah blah blah. Most crap I have heard before, but this was the first love admission. I was calm and collected. Validated where I could. Just said " yup, I think its for the best."

I did get angry once and showed him a text from 4 days ago where he admitted the A was just the thrill of the chase, and that he could still attract somebody, whether there was real connection or meaning, or not. And an I love you.
I Said maybe I should call OW, because he is playing us both. He told me I was being irrational. I said "I am?? You have been in/out 7 times since beginning of March." I had to walk away at that point before I said something I might later regret.