5 weeks in since she said she doesnt love me.

[Natus]

its been a quiet week i guess but here seems like a good place to journal.

Shes texts me when she gets to work, sending me pics to show other staff are around. Does the same when she has to stay a little longer, shes trying to be transparent and has said that she is sorry for breaking my trust.

It reminded me last week when we had an R talk she said she swayed but shes only human. I assume she is looking for forgiveness.

She surprised me yesterday by hitting the job market hard, it is of course what i wanted but i dont know if shes doing it because shes remorseful or because thats what i want. Does it matter why? i suppose not really.

Im still struggling to drop the rope. I do well until its time for bed, in the middle of the night my feet seem have a mind of their own trying to seek hers under the covers. She doesnt pull away immediately like previously though.

But i still do husband stuff, is this a no no? i make breakfast, dinner etc she tends to wash the dishes though so its not like its one sided. This morning was a bit of a rush so i made coffee to go for both of us.

Yesterday i fixed our MBR toilet sink finally.

on a final if not silly note: do any of you guys do silly things like pump out a few push ups before getting out of the shower or whatever to look good in front of WAS?