Husband looking for support

[Ralph88]

For me the answer to the whether I want to reconcile is always going to be, I am open to the idea. Half of the time I don't want her back, the other half I do. I will always reserve (at least to myself) the option to consider. Anything can happen, miracles, pure regret, forgiveness, ect. I am realistic, I don't think that she will ever come clean, be honest, be regretful, ask for forgiveness, work on her issues, be committed, or have a desire to put forth the immense effort to make a go at it. But that is mind reading, who knows. I also have no idea if those things actually happened if I could forgive and put the effort in to make it work either. So, I reserve a possibility for consideration.