SadHub, there is another way you can choose to frame your ups and downs. Yesterday was a genuinely good day, right? That is one more than you've had for some time, I suspect. Every day won't be good, but that you are having any good days at all is genuine progress from where you were a few weeks ago.
I hear your frustration about the roller coaster ride, but I honestly believe that over time the good days will start to outnumber the bad ones, and by a lot. I absolutely agree with Painter that the limbo aspect is making things much harder. I know that is the case for me, at least. The feeling that we have lost control is extremely disempowering. Start with acknowledging that there are things you cannot control, and then try to take back control of what still is within your own power. Even little things - you control what you eat, for instance. Start small and own it.
And please don't hide yourself from your daughter. I meant it when I said that she will learn from what you are going through. Don't teach her that she should ever feel ashamed of her true emotions.
I'll check in later. I have a doc Appointment. Be well, SadHub!
H: 44, Me: 45 Married: 20 y Together: 25 y no kids Walk away: 12/15 Asked for temp separation 12/25/15 PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had) H filed for D 5/16