My story job 9140 (4)

[Jb9140]

Day 28 NC (phone, text, email, social media, Sunday drop off is unavoidable)


I cannot detach today. I'm having the worst day, so far since my wife left 1 month ago.

It's taking everything in me to not email her and beg and plead for us to work on our marriage. I have know idea what has triggered this emotion.

I haven't cried like this in months. I in complete fear that this is never going to turn around. I know that the fear is my true enemy, but i just can't seem to harness it today, for good use.

I'm sure this is part of the process, but damn I didn't think This type of pain would come back.

I would like to know if any veteran out there could explain to me how to come out of this going dark process with out looking like I'm pursuing.