BA and Barb, I hope I soon find the same faith you guys have for me! I'll get there eventually, it's just a dark, confusing time for me right now. I took a really fun Zumba class night last and found myself smiling and laughing which was certainly a good sign. And shaking my big old booty.
Barb, Disney was honestly one of the most wonderful times of my life. Not only did I get to meet you and Ryan and the women who care for him, but it was the first time in a long time I could recall being full of joy, at peace, and I remember saying to myself, while watching the Christmas Light parade at Magic Kingdom (this was after you know who said "I love you" for the first time) "this feeling is what I've been waiting for for so long, and everything just made sense. Hopefully, I will get that back, and I will become the me you you described (and thank you:)
Of course the one guy I actually want to meet lives in PA! Not far away PA, but atleast an hour. I've already been told to "F*ck off" by one guy ( his profile said he wasn't looking for anything serious, I told him I was, and said good look finding his match and he went off on me). This is going to be quite a trip! My last online date happened 2 days before I met exNG. It wasn't bad at all, actually it was a nice date.
I'd prefer the old fashioned way of meeting a guy, but I don't think I will get that lucky.
What will be will be.
P.S.- barb, I have 2 more chances to go back to Disney this year, adult trips only. I really hope to make it back one of those times, but time and finances are tight!
