Getting out of in house S (9)

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Vise,

I know it is a challenge what you are going through and I understand the war in your head between the logic and the emotions. Hang in there friend. And to echo another post in your thread, avoid looking for the patterns and trying to make sense of the behavior. There is no pattern not logic.
Focus on your sons and stay in the moment. There is great energy that you can gain from them and the time with them. And the lessons and love you provide for them will be invaluable.

Hang in there and take great care of yourself. My prayers are with you that you may have strength and peace this day.