Started to think my wife is having an affair?

[cbtdad]

"Do you have access to her phone records online? If so, take a look and see if she's been calling/texting with someone regularly. Don't let her know that you're investigating. The fact that she always has her phone with her or face down is telling that she is hiding something."

I totally agree with the cake eating. I attend to end that part in our next session with MC
I do have access to our phone bill. This has been one of the things that has driven her crazy. Since she has started working in the EMT field ive let some of my trust issues get the better of me and checked the bill all the time and questioned "whats this number" "whos that", etc and so on. I've been very stupid in that regard over the past 6 months. At first she would just show me her phone and say look for yourself. But now she has gotten agitated by it. I know it feels controlling. Shes complained about it to some of our neighbors that we are really close to. Btw, they do not think anything is going on with her. And there definitely aren't any suspicious texts, but then again in the day of this age with imessage I cant see who she is texting all the time. There aren't phone calls that are suspicious at all either. Just a few from work people here and there and not a lot of same ones and they only last a few minutes.
The trust issues I have from the last time I worry could be causing the anxiety this time around. I mean her phone is up right a lot as well its not as if its always face down. She lets me talk to her over her shoulder while shes texting sometimes, but other times its like she moves the phone away or am I just reading into that because of my trust issues? That's what is driving me crazy. I feel like there could be something going on, but then I feel like I could creating this in my head because of the previous time
One thing she said in the first MC session when I joked about having a "hall pass", she said, "you do that, see what happens"
I don't know. I do know Im confused as hell about it all