Collin: I continue to pray for you (in fact I just did right now). I empathize with how you feel. When we are mired in hurt it's very hard to look at it from our spouses point of view. We want to cry out and say but "I'm hurting too" or "look what you did to me", etc. There is no easy way for doing this. I have tried to pray before I speak to my W and during. I pray to honor this convo and to help me truly listen. I have noticed that the times I do not pray before, during or after. The conversations don't go so well.
Please rest on God - ask Him to change you. I've recently started to ask God to make me into the kind of Man/Husband my wife needs (not the one she wants).
Perhaps if we trust that God will provide us with a greater future than we could imagine - if we trust and obey Him.
It's not easy, but I have faith in you.
AMEN to this.
Thanks bigybiz for this thread and your sincere prayers
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
