14 days of sheer hell, now 5 weeks are over

[DDJ]

ok, so I was attracted to two girls, one very feminine and the other masculine. The feminine one had a boyfriend so i didn't want to go there, but was soooo attracted. Anyhows, i start hanging out with the other one. One thing leads to the next and we're boyfriend and girlfriend. Then almost a year later to the day, I am alone with the OW, I act upon it, no intercourse though.

I deny this attraction to myself knowing that I must be faithful to my GF. But as fate would have it, she moves about 2 mins drive from my house, where my GF was 20 mins. I started hanging out more at OW place and then it started. The OW was sexually abused as a child, I wanted to fix her.

My GF and her were so so friends, even though my GF was clearly aware of an attraction. So we go party about 9 months from first interaction at the OWs place one day, a few days after i first had sex with the OW. My GF asks me "do you still love me?" I said that I do, but i'm not in love with you.

I realise now that I was cake-eating with my GF, whilst also having fun with the OW. I was so attached to my GF that I only let her go 4 years later - when i met my WW!!! And now i'm attached to her, and she is likewise attached to me too.

I can't believe that everything is so clear now. I was 20 at the time, mother gave me good morals. But i never listened. I had even lost my virginity to a married muslim lady! If i wasnt sitting down i'd probably fall over right now.