ok, lightbulb moment - i know where my WWs anxiety comes from. I cheated on my first girlfriend. It just hit me and it's all coming back to me now, that i said - ILYBINILWY. OMG!!!! That was 13 years ago, she pursued and pursued. i loved the rush of two girls, the secrecy, the lies. I had no "care" for my ex, I was blinded by lust to this other person. I never reconciled with my ex, and even attempted to have a R with the OW, but karma kicked me in the butt, as she was more wayward than i was. OMG!
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
