LBS back--piecing--but still regret not DB

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CRW, thank you for this. I agree. I am trying to be in the present and move forward.

Somehow things feel like they are falling into place. Trust me, I did not feel this way for a long time when H was off in the fog and then the rest of my life took a downward spiral. There were many times I felt that I was losing everything and wondered if I could even survive it. It was the darkest and scariest time in my life. Somehow, I don't even know how, I got up each day and just tried a little bit harder.

I wanted to give up, and I was hanging on by a thread, but I never let myself. I do believe (to an extent) in the laws of attraction. So keep getting up each morning, moving forward, being the best you can be, but also--forgive yourself every time you screw up! Time and patience are key. Learning from your own mistakes can be one of the best ways to grow.

Keep on keepin on!
-Blu

Hi Blu,

I have read this several times this evening as my switch feels hopeless a little more each day. The anger from my WAW is something I had never seen in 20 years and the things she accuses me of are so penetrating that I sometimes wonder if I am not the devil himself, if that is what I really did for 20 years to make her feel like she says she does now. Her words to me today, were, "I don't know why I ever married you!"
Anyway, my point is just getting up each day is a small win, and that I will make mistakes, but can learn from them. Your words give me hope on this night as I lie here wide awake in spite of taking a sleeping med. With this hope, I will try to meditate and pass on to sleep.

Thank you for your insights and wisdom, and I pray for you as you continue on your journey, may it be a successful one.