Forgot to mention another frustration... W apparently plans to do ALL activities with the kids that we used to all do together. A couple are quite mechanical in nature (saying what it is would give it away right away, as we are all over the web and W has even been mentioned in national magazines).
In other news, it was a decent day. A LONG ways to go to be as happy as I was prior BD, but I'll take anything I can get for improvement.
All gains made in how I feel are due to giving up on W or any chance at R. No where near zero on my hopes, but focusing on her faults makes dettaching much easier.
I still don't know how she thinks we are going to coparent successfully?! I think we will for the most part just NOT cooperate, just do our own thing like any other couple that went through a bitter D. It is sad, the kids will suffer, in many ways. But I will be the best and happiest dad I can be. And teach them all about healthy emotions and how to deal with things to keep them from being any more like W than necessary. They already have some of the abilities, but I can also already see W's issues surfacing in them (self blame, blaming others, victim mentality, etc.). I just hope they don't turn out like her!
I have been trying to get into some place to try a massage... Haven't tried that yet, ever, hoping it would help with stress. Not much luck so far for getting in this week.