A New Chapter

[Painter]

Hi Phoebs! Just done watching The Judge with my son, after a delicious dinner he put together while I napped. Been very achy today, probably due to lots of rain. I told him that he's giving me absolutely no incentive to find my own place!

Warning: There is a little bit in the movie about having an affair and a rekindled love story from 20 years ago, but everyone's at fault and not really nice people or anything sentimental, so it didn't get to me. It was more really messy personal lives.

Earlier, we went shopping and I got 4 pairs of really good quality shoes and boots for $100, including some lovely, soft and warm Dr Scholl's slippers (the floors here are a little cold)!

I mailed off some discount and rewards cards to H for him to use locally back there. Staying on the high road...

I'll go over to your thread to see what you've been up to.

[Phoebe]

Nice score on the shoes, Painter! You got a good deal AND you did a little self-care. There's nothing like toasty warm feet in the evening.

Nice job taking the high road with H.

[JujuB]

Hi painter,

Nothing better then retail therapy!

I still lack the attention span to sit though movies or tv. It's insane that as I write this I am presently missing GOT! I can't read either which was always a big past time for me. No problem with Internet shopping though. I want a pair of those Greek style shoes with the black bands traveling up.

Sounds like you have a great relationship with your son. Boys are the best! Wishing you well.

[Painter]

Juju, I can completely understand that you're not able to be distracted. I've been there, too, where the physical restlessness didn't allow me to sit quietly for more than a few minutes, and my thoughts would start to wander. The only activity that seemed to provide some temporary relief, was long, hot showers. I came across an article that said people with depression tend to shower more frequently and longer. I spent so much time in the shower last year that my skin got completely dried out...

I spent a nice day with a friend today, we went out for breakfast, then for some sightseeing and shopping, before we exchanged treatments (we work with the same holistic healing modality).

After she left, son and I had dinner and watched Bridge of Spies. Completely romance free, very interesting and well made.

[Painter]

Today's thought:

There is nothing I have done that made me deserve to be treated like this. Nothing.

That's all.

[Phoebe]

Glad to hear that you liked Bridge of Spies, Painter. We need to scout out more movies like that one, huh?

I watched The Finest Hours yesterday and I quite liked it (Maybe the steep $2 ticket price helped?), and I wasn't triggered by it at all, but there was a fairly bland romance subplot that went on.

Your thought of the day should be the LBS mantra. It's a thought I come back to fairly often, too.

[JujuB]

Today's thought:

There is nothing I have done that made me deserve to be treated like this. Nothing.

That's all.

Great thought and I agree with you. Every person deserve loyalty and committment by their spouse.

[Phoebe]

Hi, Painter. Just stopping in to say hello and wish you a good day. I hope you're doing something nice for yourself.

[Painter]

Hi there!

I've been busy prepping for work start next week - getting dog into day care, etc. (Included checking out potential vets, which has been a time-consuming process.)

Had pizza and a beer for dinner (very unusual for me to drink at all) while I worked. I have a part-time home office job - very handy when moving half-way across the country!

I didn't sleep very well last night, had lots of dreams and painful thoughts, although I went to bed early. I was awake from 3 to 5 and then slept a little later than I wanted to. Woke up very grumpy but it fortunately got better in the afternoon.

I realized I have not been taking my vitamins and I have felt really tired and depleted for the last two weeks. It concerned me with starting a new job that will require me to stand and move a lot. I took them today and feel a lot more energetic already.

Going to get to bed early tonight again.

Oh, a couple of mundane e-mail exchanges with H, since I woke up to alerts that he had changed e-mail and password to an account I need access to. He was in a cooperative mood today, it seems.

I also looked up local Divorce Care groups and will make a couple of calls tomorrow. Also seeing counselor tomorrow.

[Phoebe]

It sounds like you are in Dynamo mode, Painter! You've got all kinds of productive activities planned. Sorry that you didn't sleep well. I hope you get some better rest tonight.