"I guess that I want to appreciate her, well not her specifically, but the person for my next R, if anyone at all."
Maybe you could change this to appreciate your son? I'm not saying you don't appreciate him, but why not practice the skills on him? Or you could work on showing appreciation for others in general. Tell someone thank you, compliment them, let them know you're grateful for whatever thing they did. Start with X times/people a day and work your way up? Just a suggestion!
