Sotto. I think it is out of fear of rejection and I just will not risk it. In Saturday's convo , was she genuine or was it just guilt ? At the end of the day I would prefer not to be hurt again Life will be good again and time will heal all. I don't feel the gut wrenching upset of the first year and I have learned to cope with home quite well.
I do feel for W because I do shut the door quite often. She reachs out in many different way that I don't post about and even I can see she keeps way more contact with me than needed She does appear lost but she is still friend s with OM as far as I know and that's it for me
We only get one life and we need to feel that we have lived it to the best of our ability My belief is WAW / WW has true regrets and would like to return to her family , my pride or ego or fear could not let this happen because I'm not mature enough to move past it There is no pleasure in my posting that , WAW / WW hasn't changed history , she hasn't flaunted a new R in my face and she keeps her new life to herself and does not try to involve kids in any way I got to have my kids 24/7 ,and that's more than most on here
My belief is you treat people as you wished to be treated WAW / WW made choices and she now will live by them. When she's home or talking on the phone with me , I feel the connection , the old W is in there and on Sat I did open up with a few truth darts about the kids She seems very remorseful and generally sad I also think that she has accepted that we are past the point of no return and I can only see the R going down hill.
You have all been fantastic to me and I could never thank you enough.
